Musicals are kind of like the men in my life that I only enjoy having for a short period of time, but when I am with them, I'm having the absolute time of my life. I'm crazy, out of control, and toward the end, needing for things to be back to normal again. After its over , I'm missing it all for a bit, but then I feel relieved of the responsibilities and appreciative of what was there. New experiences, new interactions, and new ways to love the world I live in. Friends, destinations, and memories to last a lifetime appear. Memories that come back to you on a Thursday night and you're searching for that bit of happiness to bring you to Friday. You might shed a tear or two at because of the reminiscing, but overall it brings you back to irreplaceable moments in time.
I love the part of being on stage that you can be whomever you desire to be(of course to the director's discretion)! You can be hopeful, you can be inspired, and you can be as big with your emotions as you can. Every night of the show I try to push myself to make people believe that my acting is my real self. Tears are always a challenge for me, for crying in public is not something I normally allow myself to do, but I try to reflect back and take on apathetic emotions to all that my character represents. In doing such a historically accurate show(for the most part), it gives me more motivation to give honor back to all those that lost their lives, and those that lost love ones on the Titanic. I can't explain how real the show feels in the moment at times.
Tuesday is the first day of the Spring semester. I am so motivated to work out, eat right, have energy, and be happy! I am SO ready! If I don't stick to my laid out schedule, I'm going to tell someone to kick my butt.
Here are a few of my specific goals for this semester:
1. Do cardio at least for 45min every weekday.
2. Do crunches and push-ups 3 times a week.
3. Work on arm-strength to shape my shoulder into a higher functioning one.
5. Take the stairs.
6. Become more selfless.
7. Make a list every Friday of 5 things I'm thankful for in life.
8. Take time to cry and let out emotions.
9. Learn something new every day.
10. Write at least a page every day.
11. Make a conscious effort to break down personal walls to allow people in.
-- those may be just a few of many, but those I might consider some of the most important.
Back to rehearsal.
Until next time, I'll leave you with my favorite lyric from the slow.
"Come say you love me, as I kiss your eyes. Let this brief moment make eternal ties. If tomorrow is not in store, let us replace forever, evermore. "
