Change at it's highest and lowest.

It's hard sometimes. It's hard to see life moving and changing around you. People changing especially. It's a part of getting older though. As Meredith on Grey's Anatomy narrated on the show, " We get older, we grow taller, but we don't grow up."

It's so true. We all keep our childish behaviors and needs as we get older. I myself, find days when I crave to swing high on swings, and eat purple popsicles until my lips change colors. I still have puppy-crushes, and I still chase boys too. I have gotten older, maybe a little wiser, but still, I'm not grown up.

Maybe the fact that we never grow up helps us deal with change. It helps keep our ideas young and fresh. We have experiences that we try to learn from, and we grow stronger from having to deal with difference situations.

LIfe is unpredictable too. From one day to the next, uncertainty keeps us on our toes. It's something to embrace and it's also something to be thankful for. How boring would life be if you didn't have to hide from the police sometimes because your headlight goes out and they are just looking to give someone a ticket? What would life be like if you knew who the next person you were going to kiss would be?

There would be no risk-taking in life, because you would already know what would happen. Without the adrenaline of risk-taking and awaiting the unpredictable, we are just humans who follow the pattern of life.

Impossible to love it is, without awaiting changes within ourselves, and unpredictibility of others.

You never know when you might fall for someone. Maybe it's the first time you meet someone, and you've never felt more at home. Even if it really isn't meant to work out, maybe experiences like this teach us what the real ones might feel like.

Those moments we are held tight and lips gently brush our ears are irreplaceable. We are told how our eyes shine and we have the cutest laugh. It's so hard to not want to let go. It's so hard right now to realize that my one special night was nothing more because of many circumstances. To have a reminder of this person hung in my face daily is going to be difficult. I need a distraction.

So close to change!

Life has been crazy lately.
I run through all the emotions that exist through a matter of days.
It's kind of nuts to think about, but I think that this is my brain's way of dealing with the ending of this chapter of life.
I understand that I need to live my life to the fullest right now, because I will never experience this again, but I am ready to be done. I am ready to move on, move out, and grow up.
I love the people in my life right now. I feel like this summer might be awesome, despite all the working. I'll make the best of it.
I can't wait for my brother and his wife to come to St.Louis for my graduation! My sister will be here too!
I just heard that Sesame Street has a HIV positive character. What is the world coming to?
I need to do work, I'll write soon.